Chasing Gravity

And now, after 1 year of being in a blogging hiatus, I am back.

Here you go. Reposting something I have created weeks ago while being depressed.

falling in love is very much like chasing gravity
be careful not to screw up and its a long way down
one moment you'd think that you've reached your star
then suddenly you'll find yourself kissing the ground

ever since i was young ive always dreamed of my star
playing on the clouds and frollicking on the moonlit sky
i remember those days when at night i'd got out and stare
thinking one day the endless sky is for us to share

i used to think that i will never be able to reach you
believing im a nobody and just another face in the crowd
i've always been eager to be with you yet fear is in my heart
thinking that of all the people around i will never be at par

then you came like santa claus on a wintery christmas day
something you've always wished for but never thought'd happen
i remember that day when i used to just stand and stare
at my star who's with me and hoping you will never go away

then things started falling into place making me think
that when things are meant to happen they forever will be.
never in my wildest dreams have i thought this would happen
sharing the night and showing what your love means to me

but then i changed immensely without noticing that i did
thinking our love would always find a way to work things out
in as much as i never dreamed we would forever be
i now face the reality that forever had almost ended for me

and now im back to where i was before i started this dream
broken and hurting, no direction and without peace
i miss the nights when i'd feel like i was weightless, flying
in those days when i no longer chase bacause we are gravity.

Are you a morning or night person?

Night.

Ask me anything

The Court is now in Session.

And the verdict is out.

I'm starting to get paranoid about hearings in general - court-like hearings that is.

Why do they always say that hearings are impartial yet no one listens to your plea?

That the hearings are non-accusatory yet you feel like the guards are ready to escort you to prison?

Feels scripted and that all they want to do is to get it over with?

Next time, I'll bring my entourage.

A Range of Human Emotions

With all the issues I'm facing now, it's no surprise that I am going through a rollercoaster ride of emotions.

I really have no place to go or no one to talk to so I'll just let the anonymous readers here (if they find this blog) to read my thoughts.

Lemme get the ball rolling while I have all these emotions huddled up inside.

Loss - I feel like I've lost a part of my life already. I am not suicidal but I feel like everything I've worked so hard for is now going to waste. Just like what we were talking about here in the office - the point of the matter is - it's pointless.

Regret - I should have done something regarding this before. But regrets always show up in the end - otherwise, they won't be called regret in the first place.

Pain - That right now, I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel like I've lost my last straw of hope - my Mom. "Ikaw kasi ang may kasalanan ng lahat" - "You're the one to blame for everything that's happening" - clearly signifies her lack of support in my case. I have been longing for the day when she would just shut up and listen and believe what I'm telling her. No rebuttals, no "I told you so's", no nothing.

Hope - that maybe God has some *&^%$ed up reason why he's giving me all these trials all at once - "We say all or nothing" like our work spiels say. I'm getting a dose of my own work medicine. I still am thinking that God would not be giving these to me if I cannot handle it.

Hurt - I chose to separate this from pain since right now my chest feels like it's going to burst. I am definitely hurting now. I just want to go somewhere and scream till my lungs hurt due to lack of air. To go somewhere and cry relentlessly. To drink and get drunk. I just want to get this day over with. I don't want to focus on anything else. (Queue Lady Gaga's Pokerface).

And the best part...

Alone - I feel like I am gonna be destined to go through this alone. No one to talk to. No one will listen. Everyone will just make effing judgements.

Better pick my poison. To talk to someone and be judged again - which will hurt; or not to talk to anyone and bottle up all the hurt - which will also hurt.

I need to smoke.

and then another bomb drops

And so we were happy that we were finally reaching our anniversary at work - which is a first for most of us. Who would've thought that:

• We'd be able to stay afloat despite the fact that we are not getting paid well.
• We were able to survive all the trials we have encountered - professionally and personally.
• The account was still standing after a year.
• That I'd be able to stay for more than a year and get promoted twice.

And now. The bomb - very appropriate I might say.

I feel like a freakin' P.A.

I am being ordered "nicely" to do jobs not included in my job description. Here are samples:

• Canvassing and buying stuff.
  
• Sending reports to different people - reports concerning stuff that I did not do.

So how do I diffuse the bomb?

I remember they used to say Blue, Yellow, Red.

I forgot which one to cut.

I know this has been posted many times but what the HECK

On with the show.



"Anak ako. Dugo't laman." - Scarlet

"Anak ka lang. Asawa nya 'ko. Lahat ng pag-aari ni Martin, pagaari ko na ngayon." - Katherine

"You're just a gold digger in red!" - Scarlet

"Damn you!" - Scarlet

"Same to you anak. Same to you." - Katherine

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"Anong nangyayari dito? Magsuswimming ka lang, nakadiamonds ka pa?! “ - Scarlett

"Siyempre, diamonds are forever, like me!" - Katherine

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"Ang ganda-ganda mo na ngayon Katherine, sarap mong patayin!" - Isadora

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"Kung gaano ka katayod lumipad, ganun ka rin kabilis lalagapak. Ouch!" - Isadora

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"Look who's here, my favorite step-mother. Ang dating gold digger in red, isa na ngayong merry widow in black." - Scarlet

'Ha! Kung sa bagay mas bagay sayo yang itim, kakulay ng budhi mo!' - Scarlet

"Bakit ka nga ba nakaputi? Para pagtakpan ang mas maitim mong budhi?" - Katherine

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"Ikaw ba, totoong nagdadalamhati ka? Kasi napansin ko, kaya mong mag-biro. Kaya lang ang corny mo! Anyway, gusto ko lang malaman mo na lahat nang 'to, hindi 'to permanente. Lahat nang iyan, babawiin ko iyan sa 'yo!" - Scarlet

"Sige! Maglaro tayo, agawan ng yaman! Pero kung ako sa'yo, kakabahan ako, kasi ako sanay sa hirap. Eh ikaw?" - Katherine

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"Gusto mo ikaw ang itali ko? Pasweet sweet ka pa diyan, ganid ka rin pala!" - Isadora

"Ang bigat naman ng salitang 'yon Isadora, pero totoo, oo ganid ako! At gusto ko, ni singko walang matira sa'yo! Kaya manginig ka na Isadora, dahil uubusin ko ang lupang tinatapakan mo!" - Katherine

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"Iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon Isadora. Marami akong pera, kaya ko nang bilhin ang kahit na ano. Kahit ikaw, magkano ka ba?" - Katherine

"Hayop ka! Kahit kelan hindi mo ako mabibili, at hindi mo ako kayang bilhin!" - Isadora

"Sabagay, ayoko sayo. Mumurahin ka eh, pero yung anak mo ibenta mo ha. Sige na, promise hindi ako tatawad. Kahit used goods na, ok lang. Pag-isipan mo." - Katherine

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"Pagod ako. Huwag kang loloko-loko. Baka gusto mo ihampas ko tong bag kong mas mahal pa sa'yo!" - Katherine

"Sabagay, ako rin eh, pagod makipaghampasan. Next time, ok? In fairness ah, ang ganda ng damit mo. Pahiram minsan ha." -Isadora

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"Pero hindi ako susuko, kahit anong mangyari, babawiin kita Miguel. Dahil alam kong naging una kang naging akin. Dahil alam kong hindi kita kayang kalimutan." - Katherine

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"Anak ka nga talaga ni Isadora, nakuha mo lahat sa kanya. Mata-pobre, mayabang, at higit sa lahat, bastos!" - Katherine

"Don't you dare say bad things about my mother, kumpara sa 'yo. anghel ang ina ko!" - Sophia

"Anghel na may sungay!" - Katherine

"Oo, may sungay. Para suwagin ka! Para mauna ka na sa impyerno!" - Sophia

"Hmm. Matagal-tagal na kayong inaantay dun. In fact, balita ko, si satanas mismo ang sasalubong sa inyong mag-ina!" – Katherine

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Panandaliang donya, habang buhay na busabos." - Lola Aura

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“Luluhod ka sa harapan ko at magmamakaawa ka na tanggapin kita ulit!” - Scarlet

“Kumain ka na. Gutom lang yan!” - Miguel

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“Oh aren't you excited to see me?” - Isadora

“Excited? Alam mo bang mas excited pa akong magpunta ng dentista at mag pa root canal kesa ang makaharap ka?” - Scarlett

“Ikaw naman, nagpapaka-funny. Kung ang lahat ng bulok na ngipin ay kasing ganda ko, o di wala ng bibili ng toothpaste… I'm so witty” - Isadora

“Ano ba talagang pakay mo? I'm sure hindi naman ang kapakanan ng dental industry ang pinunta mo dito di ba? Business? Monkey business?

“Oo, at napaka disenteng monkey business. Politics.” - Isadora

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“Ba't mo ko sinampal, biyanan mo ko!” - Isadora

“Di lahat ng biyanan, pinagbibigyan, Di lahat ng biyanan pinapatulan! para yan sa mga biyenang bakulaw tulad mo!” - Scarlet

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"Tapos ka na sa gold digger in red. Tapos ka na rin sa merry widow in black. Ngayon, baka pwede ka ng dirty mistress in dirty brown.” - Scarlett

“Same to you anak, remember? Pareho na tayong nasasadlak ngayon. Damn you, damn me. Karma's a bitch, and so are we…” – Scarlett

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Miguel: Ipapakulong mo si Catherine. Anu ba mapapala mo dito?

Scarlet: Eh di makukulong si Catherine and that will make me the happiest person in this whole wide world! Ahaha.

“Or else, ang dating GOLD DIGGER ay jailbird in orange na ngayon... hahaha” – Scarlet

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Sophia: You're unbelievable

Isadora: Of course! I'm unbelievably good...

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Isadora: "Oh! maganda din naman pala eh, minimalist" (referring to silyang kahoy sa haus nla hahaha)

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SCARLET: sabi ko sayo mas imported yung cornedbeef sa bahay eh.. anu nakatikim kana ng imported?

MAID: opo ma'am

isadora: kung nagtagal ako sau vernon at d ako nagpakasal kay (mr dela rea?)..baka hanggang ngaun dpa ako nakabili ng kahit isang panty!

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ang significance ng corned beef sa iisa pa lamang…

isadora (to katulong): aalis ka? sige, wala kang utang na loob, matapos kita ibaba ng bundok at patikimin ng corned beef?

isadora(to sofia ): mamalengke ka ng ulam...teka, parang may hinahanap akong ...hmmm...ayun, bumili ka ng corned beef.

scarlet: o di ba imported ang mga corned beef dito? nakatikim k n ba yaya?

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---bibinyagan nalang kita ng bago mong pangalan....

KATHERINE MAPERANG MAPERA HUTHUTERA BYUDA DE IMPOSTORA!

---ISADORA

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“ang yabang mu na ngayon ha porket ba ang apilyido mo noon eh mrs. katherin dela rhea at future mrs rafael toralba,,. alam mo bibinyagan na lng kita ng bagong pangalan "mrs katherine maperang mapera y huthutera byuda de impostora ! oh diba mas maganda sosyal hahaha” – ISADORA

“papatayin kita!” – Catherine

“pumila ka muna, dahil sa dami ng gustong pumatay sakin, baka maunahan ka…” - Isadora

This is my most favorite teleserye

Looky looky :)